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Happy Sunday!

Or should I say happy New Year! I’m a bit late in writing this post because I’ve been doing some traveling (surprise, surprise) but today I’m back in London on my own. I’ve been thinking about writing this post for a while. I’m a very open and honest person and love sharing my life so I hope that I can impart any lessons I’ve learned or wisdom I’ve gained with anyone who wants to listen.

For the last couple of years my blog has been at the forefront of everything I do – I absolutely love sharing and talking about fashion and truly believe in its power to strengthen and empower women on a daily basis. Anyone who knows me knows that this has been a passion of mine since I was little. However, this year my blog had to take a back seat.

Going into 2018 I was filled with hopes and dreams of how the year would pan out – I moved to a new city, made all new friends, and started a new job. Even still, 2018 turned out to be one of the hardest years of my life. I went through some very difficult days and encountered issues I hope to never have to deal with again in my life.

You may have noticed I was absent on Instagram and my blog for a large part of last year and this is why. I couldn’t pretend to be happy on the internet when I wasn’t happy in real life. I took a lot of time to reflect within myself and find lessons in every difficulty. I have a renewed, although hesitant I’ll admit, hope for 2019. I”m going into this year a completely different person than I have ever been before and I’d love to share the lessons I’ve learned with you.

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YOU ARE ALWAYS GROWING

Up until last year I didn’t really think about how I was growing as a person – emotionally, mentally, spiritually. I didn’t take time to reflect on the person I was becoming. I was always happy so I figured I was doing okay.

This year showed me the importance of self reflection and growth. You do not grow or learn or change until you’ve gone through something difficult or confusing. And you must go through these things in order to further understand humanity, gain a wider perspective, and attain closer and better relationships in the future. You do not know it all – and this was a tough lesson for me. And you will never know it all. You will be growing and learning your entire life.

There is a quote from one of my favorite movies Eat Pray Love (basic, I know) that really resonated with me in learning this lesson: “Ruin is a gift. Ruin is the road to transformation.”

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DO NOT BE AFRAID OF THE UNKNOWN

As a huge Ariana Grande fan I was v excited to see her win Billboard’s Woman of the Year. In her acceptance speech she said something that really touched me: “It’s been a very conflicting [year], and I just want to say if you’re someone out there who has no idea what this next chapter is going to bring, you’re not alone in that.”

In true Virgo form I like to have everything planned out and organized. I like to know what is going to happen and how. This time last year I thought I knew exactly how the next five years were going to pan out – I had it all planned. What I failed to plan was learning that no matter how much you prepare and plan, nothing ever turns out the way you expect.

Learning to not be afraid of the unknown is something I struggle to accept every day. To let go and allow everything to be put into the hands of the universe is both unnerving and freeing. I must remind myself to trust that the universe has my best interest in mind and that even if something does not turn out the way I planned, I will still be my happiest in the end. I’ll leave you with another favorite quote: “Make plans and God laughs.”

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LIFE GOES ON

So many quotes popped into my mind when thinking about this one. I never realized I was such a fan of quotes until writing this post lol. But its true – life goes on. No matter what you’re going through it is so important to get up everyday and keep going. On top of this, you must keep maintaining faith in yourself and faith in life.

I felt myself dangerously tipping over the line of giving up. Doing life but with no hopes & dreams – just going through the motions. This is not what life is about. Having hopes and dreams is what makes life worth living and although I’ll admit I’m scared of having hopes for this next year, I’m going to do it anyway. I hope I find peace and healing in this next year, I hope I maintain and create wonderful relationships this year, I hope this year brings magic.

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Jacket: Nordstrom / Pants: Nordstrom / Tee: Free People / Shoes: Manolo Blahnik

Photography: Jen Lints Photography